Dear diaries: 244th days





feeling free by just staring at it



 

Been stuck in a toxic relationship for awhile,

leave my happiness on someone's hand,

feeling so powerless,

losing direction,

losing myself.

 

though friends who are aware of this have been telling me to walk away,

but I just can't,

I'll stay,

until I can no longer breath in it.

 

I clearly understand that I'm the only one who is responsible for my experience of life,

but life is meant to be a mixture of all kind of experiences right?

included negativities,

reminded me of "Inside Out"

sadness is a life process.

 

Being positive is not an excuse to escape from what I am experiencing,

I'm sad, I'm struggling, I need to grieve,

only then I able to move on, like really moving on,

without regrets.

 

 

Dear diaries: I have a friend like her



roses are red, violets are blue and you're an angel xD



 

 

few more days to 2016,

trying hard to record whatever have happened which I couldn't missed in this year,

so lets start with this~

 

#1 - I have a friend…

we've got much closer in 2015,

 

proud of having her in my life, regretful that why didn’t we meet each other earlier..

 

 

 

 



special birthday wishes from her~ hahaha



 

 

“When you are looking for a friend, there’s no one around. But when you start to become a friend, friends are everywhere”

This is practically proven by her. This great friend, lifting me up make me feel I’m growing better and better internally, she is younger than me but I always forgot that.

She's a great story teller.

awkwardness of staying in car alone with another one never happen between us...

I secretly enjoyed her companion in every journey we have went through together~

sounds so creepy yerrr....lol



she's always this sweetttttt



 

I’m such a forgetful person, so I wrote diaries to recall things when I’ve got older …

This year, in our big family ~ me the lucky girl get to work together and learn from this young lady, not only the way of doing things, treating people sincerely, but great attitudes towards life.

My poor writing couldn’t tell all of the stories…so…

 

Simply thankful for having a friend like her <3

 

 

 

我的老板是个红+黄

怀念那时的开怀大笑

二十三岁那年，她刚毕业，在小岛国开始了她的第一份工作，菜鸟会计师。她刚加入，才知道会计部门里只有她一人。每一天，她都必须替前同事收尾，接客户的投诉。全没经验的她，挺到了第二个星期，直接走进了老板的房间摊牌。那所谓的老板就给了一些指导后，在

一个月内，她就靠着自己的努力，反反复复的参考，收尾收得干干净净。渐渐的，这个小部门开始有了利润，老板对她另眼相看，让她驾着他的大车和客户开会，招揽生意，也为她请了助手，那助手只不过是个与她同年的女孩。

两年后，男友想要回马发展，她当然想要与他一起回老家去。所以她通知了老板，打算替老板训练些新人后再走。怎知老板就让她直接回马去开间分公司，提出了合伙的要求，她又惊又喜。那年，她只不过二十五岁。

为了拉男友一把，她聘了他进公司里，惹得老板好不高兴。一年后，老板无法再合作，想把生意全卖了，开了一口价 57万。向银行，家里借钱，男友也出了一笔钱，她买下了全盘生意，当时的她也只有二十六岁。五年内，她还清了所有债务。三十岁以前，她赚了她人生的第一桶金。与当时的男友，现任丈夫，共同前进。

也许你会觉得多数成功人士的经历也不过如此，但是当你亲身听着她诉说着当年的艰辛，心声，你是知道的，那有多不容易。

她成为了我今天的老板，哈! 才发现，我好幸运，能遇见我可以当作偶像般的老板。

她说了好多好多故事，尤其这些话，都直接印到心里去了:

1. Have the right attitudes, ask yourself, "you want it or not?! You want it? Get it!"

2. Weak memory is something that you can sort it out, find a way. Be sensitive. You want it or not?

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看见医生往自己的梦想出发了，

看见老板享受着她多年来努力的成果，

才发现自己有多可笑，

为了小小的事情，痛苦了好一阵子，

好好为自己奋斗吧！

My diaries: Been 5 months

  

Its been 5 months, 

wow, time flies 

dare not to speak those words in person,

so i text.

those are really good times,

but i've always asked myself if i really enjoying in it 

i have no idea

but there's one thing i'm pretty sure is,

i hated myself being that way,

being insecure,

being worried,

doubt on myself over and over again,

I am soooo not me!

yeah, of course there are happiness,

but they are drugs rather than true happiness,

it don't last,

it just helping to relief a lil bit from suffers,

i'm done.

祝君好

 

 

 

可以说是今年内最期待的电影之一，
澳门街的续集———十月初五的月光，
初哥哥和君好，童年时对爱情的美好憧憬，
不知不觉，已经十五年了，

君好的婴儿肥消失了，初哥哥不再稚气，

澳门的狭街小巷，
转角处他总会在那儿，
用哨子呼唤对方，
在背上哄你睡着，
一个眼神就明了，

耳边想起 "祝君好"...听，你不断呼叫我。。

 

唤起你的记忆了吗?

 

君好跳下来后的那场哭戏，眼泪噼里啪啦的滚下来，真真的感觉到那种痛，
演技不是盖的

 

 

 

陈乔恩愈成熟愈有魅力，依旧动人

 

以前看电视剧时，总觉得结局不完美，看完后心情也严重被影响。

这一次，初哥哥只不过是失忆，感恩编辑没让他死啊，但是这样的结局不是比较真实么?

电影聘了电视剧里的原班人马，再加上数位实力派的老角，

RM11 的戏票简直是超值的啦~!

Dear diaries: Be brainless

I'll go really emotional after pushed myself close to the limit in gym and sweat to the maximum.

 

Decided to walk out from the sauna as I don't wanna lose anymore fat or whatever vitamins from the

 

boops,

 

why not any where else?!

 

Do any other girls have the same problem like me?

 

the damn fat tissues always start losing from the boops first

 

 urghhhh!

 

Okay, its time for a short update on the recent emotional thingy

 

Have been struggling inside out lately, being emotional or rational?

 

The feelings are back, like how i have felt for D. Nahhhh, time flies, feelings faded,

 

but it is like it was just happened yesterday 

 

So there's finally someone appears, who i hope i can have him in my life.

 

But me, have always been bad-luck in relationships?

 

Start blaming the fortune?

 

Okay, stories of my life are I'll meeting

 

someone I'm not that into or someone I'm into a lot who doesn't feel the same way like i do.

 

I'm fed up

 

And this time, I don't wanna missed it, no matter it might fail sadly eventually.

 

Nahhhh, stay optimistic pls lady!

 

I have this issue, when comes to relationships,

 

the sanguine lady will be replaced  by this inferiority-filled girl,

 

seriously hate being this way, sooooo not-amanda

 

Soooooo, Idk how things will go, but I'll just follow what's the feelings told me

 

throw the brain away

 

be the real brainless one. ❤

917

                                                       

17^th September, a day to remind myself that I am now getting a lil bit older, it’s time to grow up and stop being childish. One of the sweetie pies wished me like this “hope your EQ will grow along with your age”, so brutal yet so true.

Guess it is normal that people will be less expecting of wild kind of birthday celebration when they grow older? I used to hope most of my friends from different group will throw me the wildest birthday parties, prepare me surprising presents and spam my timeline with “HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!” sssss. But, I just can’t get exciting about these this time, symptoms of getting old?!!? Oh my goodness!

                 

The day before this, meh came back from the small island just for me. Though she likes to take flight, but 2 times in a day is just too much. I am seriously touched and going to cry her a pool T.T We had a simple meal for the celebration, endless topics and photography. Everything is just simple and warm, they are all I’ve wanted for this day. Thanks, friend. 

Note to myself: 

Taking risk can be scary, no matter what it comes to. Trust your heart and go for anything you think its worthwhile, as you are the only one knows what's best for yourself.