Tuesday 19 December 2017

Wrap up for 2017

Its not the end of the year yet, but I already looking back throughout 2017, what happened, and how myself have been. This is going to be a longgggggggggggg-winded one lol

My father passed away on the first day of Chinese New Year, the good thing is he met almost everyone and left without too much struggling in painfulness. That was a big hit for our family, he was the main financial support of the family. We had been through some hard times, I’m glad that its finally over! Wongs are survivors <3

I left the job that I thought I will work for the rest of my life, Moola. I remember since I have joined the company, I woke up passionately every morning and work so hard as if the company is mine. I wasn’t mature enough to handle the important position, anyway, it was a great learning for life.

I joined a good company that doesn’t suit me, they have good bosses and great colleagues. However that company was in Bangi, BANGI! It was  so farrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr away from my home and I drove 1.5 hours every day for work, it drove me crazy! And……….because of lacking of sleep seriously, I looked so ugly during that period!

I joined ASIAWORKS training, and it’s a huge turning point of my life, a whole new perspective to look at LIFE. From Basic Traning to Advance Training, and finally the hard times – Leadership Program (LP) for 3 months, a very expensive self-position-check, AND I WANT TO ANNOUNCE THIS PROUDLY, IM GOING TO BE A BETTER PERSON FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE! A BETTER DAUGHTER, BETTER GIRLFRIEND (or may be wife hahahaha) AND A POWERFUL LADY. I sincerely thanks god and my cousin for bringing me to Asiaworks, it’s a gift from god.

I became the President of Leo Club of Southern Cross, proudly.

I resigned, for the second time. And joined an expanding company, my first time joining a public listed corp. I have no idea what’s next, and I just jumped in. So far I love working here, blending with the colleagues, and most importantly its just take less than 15 minutes’ (when the traffic is bad...wahahaha) drive to work! Damn it, I LOVE THIS JOB!

I travelled to Hanoi alone, and completed my first solo trip. This was one of the goals in my LP, I want to do this so bad and most of the times I just dare not to, silly me haha.. I decided to stay with GA hostel as they have quite a number of good reviews and its affordable. The whole trip is on a tight budget, so I spend most of my time walking around the city, sleeping, reading, and SHOP IN THE CRAZY NIGHT MARKET! I got a few cheap but quite-ok quality dresses over there ~ satisfied!

I am finally a GLP, graduated-leadership-program. I remember how we have been through the 3 months’ hardship, how we breakdown emotionally, and most importantly how strong is the support system, these are the kenangan terindah in my life <3

I wasn’t a good President, I tell myself. I’m so useless, I tell myself again. I broke down, feel like giving up everything and just walk out from the mess, escape from people and criticism. I thank god again, for having several of true friends, they are so supportive and have faith in me more than I do.



This cute guy is still with me, its our 1st anniversary today, I love you so much. I have been the taker in life, and you are the giver in our relationship. With you, I take less (practicing to be a giver), and swear to give you all my love. In the past 12 months, we had arguments and cold war, not giving up each other during the hardships brought us closer. I love how we paktor in the kitchen, being your assistant, playing Spotify and doing the silly dances. I love it when you hug me from the back quietly. I love how you taught me to draw gingerbread man and Cinnamon stars. I’m thrilled when you received your first order, the following orders, and seeing the startup growing each day. I’m melted, when you put me into the picture of your future, and we promised each other to spend the rest of life together. I’m so moved that you always supported me silently whenever I need. 范范说,感情是要经营的, its true! (saying this confidently after banging walls a lot of time, don’t trust me, trust my experiences!)

What’s next? Resolution for 2018? Hm ..




Tuesday 28 November 2017

给自己一份礼物


还记得是因为那天晚上和男友大吵,关于能不能互相看对方电话的事情,我气得身体都在发抖,心理不断地问自己,“你确定你要跟这一个人继续走下去?”
“”你确定吗?“

我为什么会那么不安。。。

我拿起电话,打给最亲的表弟,他说你来这里,肯定会找得到你的答案,你五天过后就会知道该怎样做了。

是不是听起来很奇怪,好像在骗着我去一些有神棍的地方。。。

他那了得的口才加上我真的非常相信他,我花了两千多块钱上了课,再花了三千多块钱继续进修,最后再丢多了两千多块完成整个课程。听起来很像骗局是不是。。

Basic Training
我发现了原来我有多么自私,我究竟是如何跟身边我爱的人们,和爱我的人们 相处的
我爸走的时候,我没有多哭,我甚至没有难过很久,我用身边所有的事情来转移注意力,我记得有一堂课,那作业把所有我与爸爸的记忆都唤回来,哭得心脏也要掉出来了,之前麻木的感觉好像瞬间恢复了
我体会到每一件事情都有选择,要对自己负责任,而不是一味的责怪别人。也许这些道理从、、脸书的随便一个文章都能读到,但是当我和其他人被放在一起做活动,看见自己的反应时,那简直是人生给我的一大巴掌的那种恍然大悟的 level。

Advanced Training 
我找到了我到底想要成为一个怎样的人,我看见了是什么东东阻碍着我前进。我和同学们也体会到 the world belongs to givers, be a giver <3

Leadership Program 
我结交了一班生死之交,哈哈,他们是那种好久不见都好 在只要一对了眼 心都暖了 我就会知道这世上没有什么是干不了的,他们随时都在我身旁撑着我,只要我开口,只要我不再重下去 (嘻嘻)。爱你们哟!那三个月的日子,还是如往的大吵小吵通通都有,只是这次我更清楚 what do i want, is what am i doing getting me to what I want? 

花了那么多钱,有少少心疼,可是投资在自己身上当作是一份礼物,这辈子继续成为一个更棒的人同时结交到这般知己,抵到烂啦! 





Sunday 19 February 2017

His love is everywhere

I'm so thankful that my baby insisted to have the family photograph before going out, despite we never expect it will be the last one.

I'm regretful, 
I have not treat both of them for a trip,
My dad has not travel overseas since my brothers and I were born,
I thought we still have time.

It happened out of a sudden,
he left us, just like that,
we were too busy for handling the funeral and telling the family,
a friend came to me, and reminded me to stay strong, after the funeral
Its the real period for all of us to stay strong, after the funeral

We've to get use to the absence of pappa,
I better not having any problem with my car,
as this time no one will save me from the troubles,
I better plan my errands earlier,
as this time no one will run them for me at last minute,
I better not left my phone at home as no one gonna send it to me with just a call,
the love is too much for us to leave the painfulness behind.