PA小姐向上冲 #3：心累了

话说PA小姐工作上遇到了前所未有的挫折，

怎么什么事情都做不好。。。

她才发现，是自己太执着了吗？

想要成为心里理想的人，可是那理想的人好象并不适合她

零友人问她：

你到底在证明什么

你在证明给谁看

你这不是在挑战着自己的极限么

怎么到后来 一直努力想要做的事情，好像都做不好，都做不成，觉得自己好没用，超失败的

PA小姐开始怀疑自己是否有问题，

到底哪里出错了

周杰伦的 稻香 里头有句歌词是这样的

追不到的夢想 換個夢不就得了

那她换份工作不就行了吗，干嘛自己难受啊

不行！

如果没把事情做好就离开，

那跟弱懦的 loser 有什么分别，就算要走，也要干干净净地走，

她心里是这样想的

心有点累了。。

我有个医生偶像

我的好友们都知道我有个医生“偶像”，因为真的不知道有哪个词比“偶像”更适合了，对我来说偶像应该是一个他会做你认为很棒的事情，也是一个你想仿效的人，所以我有个医生偶像，哈！

话说大约是五年前我无意中在表弟的脸书看见了一个关于博客得奖名单的文章，在里边发现了医生的博客，在印象中他入围的是 “对生命有影响力xxx” 类似的奖项，那时我就在想 怎样的文字会对生命有影响力呢，那么夸张？点了进去以后，我几乎一星期好几天都在等待他的更新。。。一直到现在 当然现在没有以前那么变态式的频密

喜欢他分享与病人之间的互动和故事
喜欢他分享对生活上的想法
喜欢他分享的电影，书籍和音乐
喜欢他旅行的故事
更喜欢他分享的所有当志工的故事

在发现他的部落格之前我就曾想过要参加一些义工活动 或许渺小的我可以为这社会做些小小的贡献，可是都没有得到很好的经验，还蛮挫折的。然后刚好家里发生了一些不好的事情，一些我只能收在心里的事 有口说不出的苦。感觉发现他的部落格好像是一个转折点似的 原来我的世界以外发生了更多悲惨的事情 我却因为生活给我一些挫折绊倒而无心无力站起来，真的很没有用耶！之后，通过朋友找到了我现在的第二个家 Leo Club of Southern Cross, 遇到了一班热心的朋友，有些甚至只比我小好几岁 大家一起想着点子做有意义的事情，我的生活从此多了这件美好的事情。 然后，我就好像个超级粉丝似的从他的第一个文章读到最新的一个然后顺便人肉搜了一下。。。相信我，那时候我简直可以当 FBI 了！

然后他真的出书了耶！——《索马里，我的世界之外》

因为工作的关系，我几乎一个月都没有点进过医生的部落格，
就这样我错过了他的新书发表会！！！
真的要气炸了！
我本来可以拿到他的签名！如果够幸运的话可能还可以合影！！！
妈的。。眼皮因为翻白眼快翻到抽筋了。。。

过去了就算了。。我当晚立马到大众书局买了一本！

“世界让我遍体鳞伤，但伤口长出的却是翅膀”
真的超爱他的文字。。

原来无国界医生也需要非医药组的志工，

我不敢说我肯定会参加，

但是我真心希望我可以用自己超渺小的力量做点什么,

所以在去到国际等级之前，我还是先粘着我家小狮子们吧 <3

PA 小姐向上冲 #2 第一课

比起 我爱你 更不容易说出口的三个字，你知道吗？

对不起

是的， 是对不起

因为自尊心，她就是不肯认错 低头，打从心底的承认她错了

你为什么迟到  因为塞车

你为什么这样 因为那样那样

你为什么那样 因为这样这样 

始终都不会是

“对不起， 是我做错了”

“对不起， xxxxxxxx" 

看起来正常至极的事情，

小孩子都能懂得的道理，

她好像做不到

J 老板因为这件事情 每个星期至少花好几个小时给 PA小姐说道

他是变态吗 为什么那么爱听别人对他说对不起

听见别人说对不起会让他觉得自己特别高级是吗

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为什么在这里的日子过得那么苦啊问题出在哪里了。。？我的问题吗？ 

找来了阿琳，她肚子里的虫，

立刻给赏了几句 quotes of the day!

“你就是个吃软不吃硬的性格，只要别人对你稍微强硬了些，你就立刻筑起了一道墙，不管他说的对不对，你都听不进去，你就是要赢过他” 

“每一次只要你觉得老板要训你了，你必须告诉自己，这都是他为了让你　be a better person 才说的，设定好对的 mindset, 那么你的心墙就不会那么高，你才能更用心的听到他对你的要求” 

只能说，

人这一辈子真的真的要交对朋友啊！

J老板曾说，能真心接受自己做错而道歉的人，才是个成功的人

好的老板，这次她好像听懂了

PA 小姐向上冲 #1

厌倦了当一个无聊的会计师，

每天计算着别人赚了多少钱，

帮老板们想办法省钱，

真的是够了！

 所以她想啊想，读了四年的会计竟然不当个会计师，那她干嘛去啊？

想了一下理想的工作是什么

那应该是一份可以让她长大，

可以建立一个正确的工作态度 再变得更成熟些的工作，
有了正确的态度，没有什么工作是做不了的

当一个 Personal Assistant 好像还不错？

近距离地向一个老板学习，

处理各种不同的状况 顺便修一修应变能力，

挨一挨老板气，

也顺道磨一磨练坏脾气~ 

应征了一份刚起步的小科技公司，
她将是公司的第一位员工，
那么小的公司，PA 小姐需要处理的不只是老板们的私事
她有两个性格南北的老板
只要不是科技，
所有的事情都与她有关，
她行吗？

Pia's the padi

For anyone who is going to Pulau Langkawi, I would strongly*10000000 recommend he/she to go to this place! 

a lil cozy restaurant next to the paddy field,

its the last day on the island, 

all of us woke up late and wanted to grab something before head to the airport, 

so Mr Google gave us some suggestions and we simply picked one of them, 

yeah, I'm so grateful now that we chose Pia's The Padi, 

Can you imagine how satisfy it is, when you're having good food beside the breathtaking paddy field, especially I love paddy field, 

when we stepped into it, there's only two guests were in the house, 

it's empty, but lovely

Met Jimmy, a citizen of United Kingdom, I love his accent, a lottttttttttttttttttttttttt

married a local, have been staying here for more than decades, he sounded so lol

he has a fierce wife, who don't like him to talk too much haha thats too cute

lucky him caught chances to chat with us pretty girls before the fierce wife arrive,

I'm not sure what was his full time job, 

operating a restaurant without much traffic seems like a retiring plan,

the kid at the next table was suffered badly from mosquitoes, so Jimmy offered him some medicine, was he a doctor? 

all of us fell in love with the superyummy dessert,

some kind of customized mangoes flavored ice-cream,

the best thing is,

he gave us the recipe!

thanks Jimmy <3

so I mentioned this great place with great food,
but you don't see any pictures of food right?
trust me, they are too good for us to capture them,
we stuffed them straight into the tummy when they are served!

Jimmy said: life is beautiful, if you believe it is beautiful

how simple the words are, yet powerful

he looks soooooooooooooooo alike with THE EQUALIZER, don't you think so?!

get lost is a part of the journey,

just like how simply of us picking a place for brunch and ended up meeting this awesome fellow in his amazing fam restaurant,

you gotta believe it, life is really this beautiful. 

And I love him

                                                       

I wasn't sure if I did,

I'm pretty sure I do, 

the heart beats really fast when I finally see the long lost face,

still love the way my hands being hold, love the scents left,

I'm glad that he is doing well, at least he is alive

he looks stressful, I wish I can do something, I hate it when I can't,

coward me didn't say it in person, I love you. 

Me Before You

So I watched this long waited movie...

The first thing came into my mind is

we girls really don't have to be physically attractive in order to get your crush

see how Louisa Clark did that?!

tbh, she is neither physically fit nor having a great sense of fashion,

I'm really really get inspired by how this girl bring happiness to others,

stay happy and positive as a person is good for ourselves, as an individual towards life,

but bringing happiness and sweeten up others' life a lilttle is different,

its a powerful attraction to anyone surrounding you,

I hate it when....

its really upset me because Will Traynor insisted to end his life at the end, 

I can't say "how can someone end his/her life that easily?! wth!?" because I haven't been to his situation,

but it's still worth trying a little bit harder since you met such amazing one right? At least do it for her..

Alright, I'm a lil too emo after the show..

expecting a happy ending in every story or in our real life story might be unrealistic, 

its just upset me, a lottttttt,

anyway, the show worth the price hehe

#everyoneintheshowissodamnhotweih

Dear diaries: 244th days





feeling free by just staring at it



 

Been stuck in a toxic relationship for awhile,

leave my happiness on someone's hand,

feeling so powerless,

losing direction,

losing myself.

 

though friends who are aware of this have been telling me to walk away,

but I just can't,

I'll stay,

until I can no longer breath in it.

 

I clearly understand that I'm the only one who is responsible for my experience of life,

but life is meant to be a mixture of all kind of experiences right?

included negativities,

reminded me of "Inside Out"

sadness is a life process.

 

Being positive is not an excuse to escape from what I am experiencing,

I'm sad, I'm struggling, I need to grieve,

only then I able to move on, like really moving on,

without regrets.